Noticing.FortyOne

  1. Rain.
  2. I wait to make the frosting. The noise probably won’t wake her, but who wants to gamble on that at 5:30am?
  3. I’m angry that I care about the dress. I tell myself it’s not important in the grand scheme of life, the universe, and everything. But there’s a competing sadness at yet another compromise. I’ve waited so long to fix this. Did I wait too long?
  4. A sniffle and a tear. Sports aren’t my thing, and I haven’t lived there for a decade, but it’s still my city.
  5. There and back again.
  6. We talk freely and frankly, in a way that’s cool water to my uncertainty-parched soul. I’ve missed this.
  7. When you cross the border, it’s just different. It shouldn’t be. But it is.
  8. These days, there’s a pause that goes on a beat too long whenever someone asks me how I’m doing. Because I don’t know. I have to stop to collect myself in the present moment to review the past before choosing the right words to abridge the story for casual conversation.
  9. I hear the emotion in his voice over the phone as she sings to him. A twinge of jealousy.
  10. What is that smell?

Author: Ellie

Uppity stardust. Will eat (almost) anything.

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